Do you ever have moments when you can’t make up your mind?
When you both love and hate something simultaneously?
I mean there are things that I downright love without question. Like watching the sunset, a good glass of Pinot Noir, outdoor music festivals, vacations, shopping sprees, and of course a drama-filled episode of Real Housewives.
Lately however I’ve been in the flip-flopping mood. For example:
I love being back in Santa Barbara where “winter” means it’s 70 degrees. But I hate that I am 3,000 miles away from family and friends.
I love how beautiful snow makes everything look. But I hate when it interferes with travel plans (like having to make a round trip from SB to the east coast for a half-day interview because snow canceled the original date).
I love eating chocolate chip cookies. But I hate that my over indulgence during the holidays makes my jeans a little snug.
I love getting to see all my grad school friends at school again. But I hate that my desk just reminds me how much work on my dissertation I have to do.
I love that soon Mike and I will be starting out a new chapter of our lives some place new for my internship. But I hate having absolutely no idea right now where I’ll end up.
I love reading about new recipes. But I hate not having enough time to cook a fabulous meal…or the desire to run to the grocery store right now.
I love that I am turning 28 next week because let’s be honest 27 is not a year a would relive. But I hate…well actually I don’t hate anything about getting a year older, perhaps a little wiser? Or maybe just a little more content with life’s bumps, turns, and unexpected moments of pure bliss. Here’s to hoping at least!
Anything you are loving/hating right now?